Friday, October 16, 2015

30 Weeks






Dress: thrifted | shoes: Something Borrowed | hat: bought online | bag:vintage 

These photos were taken during my 30th week of pregnancy. I'm already on my 32nd.  I'm so close to popping this baby out and I'm both thrilled and scared at the same time. 

I've often wondered why it's such a taboo for women to admit they're scared of childbirth. I know so very little women who would claim they were terrified prior to giving birth. In social media, I only see excited pregnant women. 

I, for one, am terrified of the process.  Of course the excitement trumps all feelings of fear but there's no denying it's there. And as I get closer to my due date, that gnawing feeling increases and I can't help but find reassurance from other women who have gone through the same. After all, childbirth is a life or death matter.

On the other hand, we're really looking forward to the next few weeks. Pregnancy has been a revelation to me. It's both an ugly and a beautiful thing.

Although occasionally discomfiting and painful, not to mention restricting, i love feeling the small jabs and kicks. It reminds me that someone so precious is growing inside me and that I'm a vessel for that miracle. It makes me complain about engorged body parts, back pain and edema less. This baby can use my body all it wants so long as it arrives healthy and happy.



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  1. Hmm. I do know a few women who were scared about giving birth. I was not scared. I hated being pregnant but would give birth 200 times instead of having to go through the long process of waiting to give birth. Sounds odd. I so want a third child. Congratulations on being only 8 weeks away from 40 weeks!! So close to birthing. It might seem scary and for some it truly is. I pray that you will have a very easy delivery! I pray you will ot fear. HOWEVER, I never hear women talk about the trouble AFTER giving birth. THat was very painful. . .giving birth to a placenta hurt more to me than giving birth to a child. Having to deal with the first pee afterwards was extremely painful. Ask for an ice pack which makes it feel so much better! Also, wear a lot of lip gloss during your birthing, as your lips get so dry especially since you can only eat ice chips (make sure you eat before going to labor if possible. My second birthing was horrible because I didn't eat for 36 hours - labor was only 13 of those hours - and that was the only pain I felt the whole time hahaha hunger. After I gave birth I asked for a sandwich which I threw up since my belly just had a major change that it couldn't hold food for another few hours. . .).

    Anyway, yey!!!!!
    +Victoria+
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  2. You look lovely in that breezy smock dress! I have never been pregnant, but it sounds absolutely terrifying to me. I think mothers are like warriors for going through it. I'm sure it must be wonderful to finally meet the baby you've been carrying for so long, though. Best wishes for you!

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