When I was 17, someone told me no guy would make the mistake of courting me because I was too child-like. I couldn't blame him, really. I was already in college but I was still hung up on anime, on enshrining my fandoms and obsessions. Looking back, I guess that was just his polite way of saying I have the sex appeal of an ant.
Now that I'm 27, wiser, a bit jaded, emotionally seasoned, I'm still hung up on anime and on enshrining my fandoms and obsessions. I have absolutely zero regrets. Zero.
So to that person who reduced my self-esteem to smithereens when I was 17, screw you. Someone did fall in love with me in all my geeky, child-like, obsessive glory.
Take it from a girl who just turned a year older. Never lose your child-like quality. That's going to cushion you from the harshness of this world. Wear it like a badge of pride.
Never be in a hurry to grow up. Because when you get old, you'll wonder why you haven't savored every moment of your youth.
Never let anyone influence you in becoming a person you don't want to be, unless you want to impress everyone but yourself.
As much as I make a joke out of hating getting older, I actually revel in it. I mean, the freedom! There's no equal to it. I get to decide what I want to do with my life, which path I will take, which people I want to hang out with. I get to have a voice that people listen to. But the best part about it is that I have developed a sense of conviction.
I'm so grateful for another shot at living life. I'm still growing emotionally, mentally and spiritually (I lost all hope of physical growth) and I know, in the future, I'm going to make follies that will make me want to mentally kick my shins. But God, how I look forward to it!