Sunday, January 13, 2013

27

When I was 17, someone told me no guy would make the mistake of courting me because I was too child-like. I couldn't blame him, really. I was already in college but I was still hung up on anime, on enshrining my fandoms and obsessions. Looking back, I guess that was just his polite way of saying I have the sex appeal of an ant.

Now that I'm 27, wiser, a bit jaded, emotionally seasoned, I'm still hung up on anime and on enshrining my fandoms and obsessions. I have absolutely zero regrets. Zero.

So to that person who reduced my self-esteem to smithereens when I was 17, screw you. Someone did fall in love with me in all my geeky, child-like, obsessive glory.

Take it from a girl who just turned a year older. Never lose your child-like quality. That's going to cushion you from the harshness of this world. Wear it like a badge of pride. 

Never be in a hurry to grow up. Because when you get old, you'll wonder why you haven't savored every moment of your youth.

Never let anyone influence you in becoming a person you don't want to be, unless you want to impress everyone but yourself.

As much as I make a joke out of hating getting older, I actually revel in it. I mean, the freedom! There's no equal to it. I get to decide what I want to do with my life, which path I will take, which people I want to hang out with. I get to have a voice that people listen to. But the best part about it is that I have developed a sense of conviction. 

I'm so grateful for another shot at living life. I'm still growing emotionally, mentally and spiritually (I lost all hope of physical growth) and I know, in the future, I'm going to make follies that will make me want to mentally kick my shins. But God, how I look forward to it!

5 comments :

  1. I'm 18 and I still having that fandom obsession. how I want a boy like my bias or yeahh someone like that . hihi .. and my college friends still love anime and act childish , well, I think, YES, it's our way to reduce stresses :)

    agree with you!

    ReplyDelete
  2. my fandoms have nothing to do with whoever I'm dating. I would NEVER give them up just to make someone like me! that'd be pathetic.

    I totally agree with you on this topic.

    http://whatmakesuslive.wordpress.com

    ReplyDelete
  3. So it's your birthday Kathy? Happy happy birthday to you!!!! And I'm with you - there's no merit in growing up to fast... it just harshens and hardens you. So cheers to keeping your child-like spirit alive while growing up in age; you're beautiful and will only keep growing more lovely as the years go on! :)

    Cassie
    thriftthick.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
  4. What an ass! Happy birthday and enjoy your geekiness. :)

    ReplyDelete
  5. Oh goodness. That guy is just.... I'm so glad you are not letting some guy tell you not to be "childish" or whatever. I think its wonderful to have some happy outlet ^_^

    ReplyDelete

 

My Peach Days Copyright © 2010 Designed by Kathy