Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Smells Like Fall Spirit




Some genius once said indifference cuts deeper than outright anger or scorn; that it wreaks more havoc, does more emotional damage than when someone shouts at your face or hurts you physically. I never really completely understood why until lately. 



When you are unconsciously made to feel invisible, you lose part of your self-esteem and your self-worth. On the surface, you feel angry. But in reality, deep down inside, when you have fully assessed how you feel, you are, in essence, hurt. Not angry. Hurt. There's an enormous difference. 

Hurt because you realize you are not as important and as indispensable as you once thought. Hurt because you are confused. Hurt because you realize you have been trying to hold on to things that are no longer there.



And I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of feeling insignificant, tired of hiding the hurt. 

Right now I'm accepting the fact that this is my reality. I'll give myself a moment to wallow in self-pity and then soldier up and move on.



And today, I mustered up the courage to let go of this baggage and focus on being happy. Happy with Myk, happy with the people who genuinely cares. The world has too many mentally unstable people already without me adding up to it.

That last photo is a gratuitous addition, taken from our innumerable outtakes, to an already extensive jpeg vomit, that will serve as a symbol of my impending emotional rebirth. lol! And to remind people that despite my penchant for melodramatic posts, I'm still a dorky kidult inside who loves to wear socks with her brogues. God I have mad love for long sentences! kekeke~

PS: I love skorts so much. Unlike skirts, I don't have to worry about fashion mishaps. 
PPS: I thrifted this Lanvin envelope bag a year ago. Back then, I didn't realize I snagged a Lanvin creation. A dollar for an authentic Lanvin bag. Can you believe it?

11 comments :

  1. super cute and sweet as always :3
    enchanting!

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  2. Your skirt is too cute!

    Becky
    xx

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  3. the outfit is so cute. the skirt is amazing. I love the belt.
    have a nice day ♥

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  4. the belt is too adorable!

    Jessica
    http://www.jumpintopuddles.com

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  5. A. dor. a. ble. As always. And I'm glad your post has a happy ending; one of the quickest ways to get over feeling unnoticed/insignificant is by acknowledging your own worth and wearing it proudly on your sleeve each and every day. People will be drawn to your love for yourself and love you in return :)
    Mushyness aside. I can't believe that's a skort!! It's so cute and such a fantastic shape. And you are a hat girl!! Yay, just like me! Not a hat girl in the sense that you own a ton of hats but a hat girl in that you just look good in hats. I feel like either people do or don't but you definitely do!

    Cassie
    thriftthick.blogspot.com

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  6. WAAAAAAH! I like your top and your dog belt! You look soo cute here. :)

    -Aya <3

    Mind if we follow each others blog? :)
    www.ayapimentel.blogspot.com

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  7. First off, you always have the most beautiful pictures and I'm jealous :)

    Second, I'm sorry about how you've been feeling, I get that way as well. It's so hard to focus on being happy! But don't give up, it all be okay! (in the end)

    Kaylee
    xo

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  8. Very cute!

    xo Jennifer

    http://seekingstyleblog.wordpress.com

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  9. Cute outfit! All of your pictures are so nice!!

    <3 Emi
    www.silverandlemon.com

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  10. So cute! I love your collar and that belt is absolutely adorable! :)

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